Flash back when I was around standard 5 or 6, I was just a boy.
I wasn't sure whether I was undergoing puberty at that time, but I remembered some friends used to say I sounded like a sissy.
Seriously, I was quite affected. In my heart I wished I could grow up faster and turn into a real man. Sometimes I listened to my own voice, I recorded my own voice and played it back..., then couldn't help but curse myself for sounding like a toad.
You know sometimes, when you speak, what you heard of what you speak is different from what others would hear (slightly different, I guess?). For me I think it sounds totally different.
Today while I was doing some house chores, I listened carefully to my voice as I speak. And I still think what I heard of my voice today is somewhat the same as what I heard last time when I was still a boy.
The only difference is, nowadays people say I have a deep voice, which I don't really agree, because that's not exactly what I heard...
I am unsure whether anyone has the same problem as me? haha
Anyway I think I have grown up, though definition of a "man" is quite subjective and I can't really be sure whether I could be regarded as one, but yeah at least I don't sound like a toad anymore...
A random 2021 update
2 years ago
how come sissy can jump to a toad??
ReplyDeletei dono how i define sissy here, maybe i acted like a sissy + my voice hvn mature yet, but slowly later when I enter puberty, i still act bit sissy n sound like a toad.. u noe how that sound.. like those highschool boy annoying voice..
ReplyDeletei think we hear ourselves differently cause of how our ears are positioned right, no?
ReplyDeleteYes, maybe hahaha.. But it's so weird.. I wonder how u perceive ur own voice?
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