Sunday, November 21, 2010

A relationship - full of different emotions

It is worth notice that for
American marriages began in 1980, about 10 per cent ended up divorce;
For couples married in 1920, the rate was about 18 per cent followed by;

1950 = 30%
1970 = 50%

And for newly-wed in year 1990, the divorce rate was estimated to be 67%.
If the statistic is true, then for every 10 married couples, 6 will end up splitting up and say bye bye…..

Flash back during my grandpa times, divorce was practically not in the context even in the most miserable match of couples. It could be due to wives’ economic dependence on their husbands. But if that’s no longer the issue, emotional forces between couples may be crucial for determining the survival of a marriage.

The differences between how men and women handle their emotions, aside from the biological factors, could be arisen from the differences in emotional worlds boys and girls are exposed to while growing up. Boys are girls are somehow taught very differently in terms of how to handle emotions. In general, parents, especially mothers, when talk to their daughters, they tend to talk more detail the emotional state itself and more about feelings. On the other hand, when they talk to the sons, probably parents may go more detail about causes and consequences of emotions. As a consequence, girls may be more articulate in expressing their feelings in words rather than emotional reactions such as physical fights. Boys on the contrary more likely to express anger “physically” rather than “verbally”.

Girls tend to play together in a smaller group with the emphasis of together-ness and cooperation. While boys normally play in a larger group and the games involved are normally more competitive; dead or alive, they wanna know who is the winner. If somebody’s got hurt during the game, girls will gather around to help the girl who is crying. But sadly, when a guy got hurt, he is expected to stand up and continue the game or may be left out by the gang and regarded as the sissy in the group. As girls and guys grow up in such circumstances, girls become more sensitive in reading emotional signals at both verbal and non-verbal levels. They are also better in expressing and communicating their feelings compared to the guys. Guys on the other hand master the ability to mask their emotions when it comes to pride, fear or hurt. Or expressing their emotions in a more destructive manner.

Studies say that, for the wives, intimacy means talking things over, especially talking about the relationship itself. The men sometimes don’t understand what the wives want from them. They say, ‘I want to do things with her, and all she wants to do is talk.’ Of course not all men are like that, sometimes husbands would also want to settle problems in the relationship, such as problems related to communication. But somehow, probably because men grow up from a childhood where communication and expression of feelings are less emphasized, when attempt to express their complaint/dissatisfaction, often expressing it as anger, in a wrong way, wrong tone with a poor choice of word. Anyway, at times, wives may express their complaints in a wrong way as well.


[Stories attained from Goleman, 1996.]

a)

Fred: Did you pick up my dry cleaning?

Ingrid: (In a mocking tone) “Pick up your dry cleaning? Pick up your own damn dry cleaning. What am I, your maid?

Fred: Hardly. If you were a maid, at least you’d know how to clean.

b)

Pamela and her daughter went shoe shopping while her husband, Tom, went to a bookstore. They agreed to meet in front of the post office in an hour, and then go to a matinee. Pamela was prompt, but there was no sign of Tom. “Where is he? The movie starts in ten minutes,” Pamela complained to her daughter. “If there’s a way for your father to screw something up, he will.”

When Tom showed up ten minutes later, happy about having run into a friend and apologizing for being late, Pamela lashed out with sarcasm: “That’s okay – it gave us a chance to discuss your amazing ability to screw up every single plan we make. You’re so thoughtless and self-centered!”

The return of Tom’s apology, was a statement from the wife saying “thoughtless and self-centered”…

According to the author, Pamela’s way of expressing her emotion is a character assassination, a critique of the person, not the deed, which is more than just a complaint.

There is a huge difference between complaints and personal criticism. In a complaint, a wife will state what exactly makes her feel sad, and criticizes reasonably on her husband’s action, not her husband, by saying how it made her feel (referring back to the first story, the wife should say):

“When you forgot to pick up my clothes at the cleaner’s it made me feel like you don’t care about me.”

This is an expression of basic emotional intelligence which is positive, not aggressive or passive.

But in a personal criticism she might say:

“You’re always so selfish and uncaring. It just proves I can’t trust you to do anything right.”

This kind of criticism leaves the person on the receiving end feeling ashamed, disliked, blamed, and defective – all of which are more likely to lead to a defensive response than to steps to improve things (Goleman, 1996).

In a relationship, there’re many factors which to lead a divorce/break up in couples, one of it could be the contributory of emotional forces. A good emotional management along side with good communication with the partner may be crucial to hold a relationship together. Understanding the nature of gender differences in terms of their emotions could also lead to a better understanding between couples and a happier future, hopefully….

Indulge in reminiscence

I used to know what I'm doing. I used to know what I want, what I like . I know my targets and I work my way to achieve it. I like collecting envelopes. I like stickers. I like bags and pouches and boxes. I like colour pens. I like a variety of the same thing cuz its always better to have more of one thing than just one. I have dreams. I want to earn lots of money. I used to think earning 10k is not a problem. I want to travel around the world. I like fancy stuff like a mini popcorn maker, can badge maker, sticker maker, pottery machine etc. I know why I say no to many and yes only to those matters to me.

This morning, I woke up and decided to look back at my old stuffs that I kept in boxes. Its placed in the top layer of my wardrobe. That's why I've almost forgotten about them. Out of sight, out of mind. There was a lot of reminiscing going over while looking at my stuffs and it brought back a few memories of my own. I remembered me.

I can say that the stef now is not quite like the old stef. I dont know why. I guess its the process of growing up. I used to like colourful stuffs but now I'm like a mono colour person. I used to make funny things that I like during my free time but now I'll sleep or just laze around or hang out with frens whenever I'm free. I used to have a proper schedule.. but now? Its all in a mess. I rush assignments everyday, I am always catching up with time. I lost my hobbies. Last time I used to play the piano and guzheng almost everyday. Now? Once every 6months. Guzheng? Worse.. once a year.

Its probably the environment and the busy world that made me like that. I believed many of u are the same. Its not the same anymore, its not easy to say no anymore. But instead, we will find ourselves saying yes to many other things. Even though its not something we truly want.

But whatever it is, its a good sunday morning. I felt good looking back at my old stuffs, bringing back my childhood memories. And find myself back once again. It feels good to get back to where you were, who you were. I know, I'll always have a base in me.

Ps: I'm not being emo. :)

Friday, November 19, 2010

What is LOVE?



The very moment we were born in this world, we want love. Love is never enough. At least to most people. But the good thing about that is that love is unlimited. but how many people would show their love to someone? Not much.

People that love someone are afraid that their love will be rejected and dejected. People that are already in love are sometimes afraid to show their love to the person they love. Cuz they're afriad of what's ahead of them. what's gonna happen once it end. how are they gonna show the same love to the next person. Some are just afraid to receive too much love and not know how to love back.

What's the first thing that comes to your mind when u hear the word LOVE?
(these are the answers I got from a few people)
1) Love is when the feeling is mutual.
2) It is a kind of magical word where somebody that's in love can stil be hurt cos of crazy lil' things. Lee Cher Lynn
3) Love is pure and compassionate. Tan Ling Keat
4) The person that manage to capture one's heart. How Kam Hing
5) Love is being loyal to that person no matter what happens. Theng Zheng-Yew
6) Love is blind and it's complicated. Dickson Ng Zi Hao
7) Love is sweet, understanding and having a companion. Eee Suen Sheng
8) Love comes where lust goes. Love is not about attraction, love is about the willingness to sacrifice even when you dont want to. It's about commitment, understanding and also the conversation. Joshua Tan

When you tell someone that you love them, do you really love them? Is it the person that u're loving or is there any other drive that's pushing you to love? Love is definitely about commitment, willingness to be selfless and being able to sacrifice without the want of anything in return. It's not money, materials, looks or fame. It's about your real happiness in life.

What is LOVE?
Love is how you define love.

As for me, true love comes involuntarily. Love is when u feel right and nothing else matter, only love matters and that's when Love is blind.

The best love is the love that comes with a great flow of happiness.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Perky?

Sorry for the late update. Well its kinda busy these days. I have been ignoring friends and family that i regretted doing that. Yes. Well last saturday we went to this job convention at KLCC. Well, that was just an excuse of taking a break from our hectic lives because we stayed there for roughly an hour and spent the remaining time at Pavi. As you all know Uniqlo is at KL. I am crazy about this brand due to their funky colours and bizarre yet unique lo prints. Who else can create nordic prints like Uniqlo. Incorporating the design into fleece sweaters is a brilliant idea.
Yet one might wonder where can i wear these garments. Fear not, Nottingham is cold enough(from extreme AC settings) to wear those sweaters :) besides, they are comfortable enough for you to sleep in :)

Huhhuhuhu lets see. Did anyone know that the CCTV in Nottingham caught students (i assume) engaging in sexual act? There was a note pasted on elevator wall. stating ...

HAVING SEX IN THE ELEVATOR
The elevator was not designed to operate under intense magnitudes, nor were they designed for the disposal of used condoms. The state of the elevators earlier this week was evidently the result of sexual activity. This was later confirmed by viewing the CCTV footage from Friday evening 15/10 20:00 to the following morning 16/10 0400

The elevator has not yet been sterilized
please keep all sexual activity in your own rooms, not the elevator :)
(also please masturbate in your own rooms)
the university of nottingham

HAHAH hilarious la..... wtf.... when they said intense magnitude... i can imagine much force and energy was used to do it. magnitude 9.0 perhaps? lol

Dispose condoms??? wtf.... that reminded me about a night where i was jogging with billy and we saw a pad like material covered in "custard cream". urgh the disposal bins exist for a reason (that includes you htennek :x)

the state of the elevator????? wow... imagine all covered in custard cream everywhere... MESSY!!!!!

They viewed the footage!??? like pornography????? from 8 pm till 4 am???? wow so long leh..... sure hak guai lol... no translation required.

luckily the university gave us all a piece of advice. be a man... do it in the room... not public area... this is not some tarzan jungle where you can pee, shit, fuck all around like some barbaric animal trying to mark your territory with your custard cream.

that all folks. peace :)

Tiscra Mouse

Seldom I attend class early, not anymore, probably because I've shifted to somewhere further from our campus.

Today, I woke up early, so decided to go campus earlier, for once...

Class at tiscra 2 today, and obviously the first thing to do when come to tiscra, besides looking for a strategic and a more "clean-looking" seat, is to login to facebook...

Suddenly..........

Yucks..... why is the mouse oily? why are there stains on the mouse? What are those stains???? Who left those stains on the mouse??? OMG tiscra is always so dirtyyyy. (Stef)

Then, we started guessing what could those stains probably be....

***
hmm... it might be someone who eats while using the computer, and use the mouse instantly after licking their fingers.

Or...

it could be someone who has problem with their sweat glands and sweat bloody a lot or it's just someone who is bloody F*t who has a super oily palm.

***

Before we could have a proven conclusion, suddenly the person next to Stef.....

HAAAAA CHIUUUUUUU..... sniff sniff sniff, rub his nose [sneeze]

Finally we know what are the stains on the mouse....

Worse still, we observed that guy for a few minutes,

after he sneezed, he started biting his finger and we could hear crunching sound...

Stef felt SOOO disgusted, she instantly logged off and went to sanitize her hands....


**THE END**

Lastly, if you're a super hygiene freak, please bring gloves to tiscra next time. :)

and also if you're a super dirty freak, please wear gloves too.

Thank you very much for your cooperation.



Wednesday, November 17, 2010

2012.. is it comingg??

So, are we gonna die?

Are human species gonna disappear just like the dinasours?

Are the nostradamus predictions accurate?

Is the movie 2012 a warning to all of us?

***

All these while, Malaysia has always been safe, no natural disaster like earthquakes, tornado etc. But, ever since the tsunami in year 2004, everything has changed. Gradually...and thats why ppl dont realise it.

Recently, the myth of 2012 becomes more apparent. More and more places/countries which used to be known as natural disaster free zone are no longer safe. Floods, tsunami, earthquakes etc are happening in places that never once happened. Just look at our country and neighbouring countries, the 2004 tsunami; the frequency to which tsunami and earthquake attack Indonesia; the flood in Thailand..........Dont you get the hint??

It is also frightening to know that most of the earthquakes that occur recently are not minor ones. Leading us back to the deadliest tsunami in Dec 26 2004, it is actually the consequence of
a 9.0 magnitude earthquake—the largest earthquake in 40 years—ruptured in the Indian Ocean (Brunner, 2007). (Read more on http://www.infoplease.com/spot/tsunami.html)

See the serious-ness??

Another not-so-long ago earthquake in Haiti, mor
e than 200,000 people have died, and approximately a million were left homeless.

We read about these, we know and we pity these victims. But its always, arrrhh ya...there's earthquake in that country... after awhile, we dont remember it anymore. Not until another disaster happen again. Why like that? Thats because we never encounter one before. Instead of feeling grateful, we take this for granted.

Well, its time for us to be concerned. Malaysia is not as safe anymore.

15November2010 -> Floods in Klang Valley resulting in massive jam and obstructing the Putraline operation.

And this--- > Tornado spotted in Melacca (2008)




The damage..



Not only in melacca, recently, there's also tornado in Penang and Perlis:(

The world has changed.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

A day out to KL

How often do we get to put down all our assignments in hand and pamper ourselves with a day out with friendsssss???

Today is the day! Special thanks to our School Career Advisor, Ms. Christina V. Supramaniam who informed us about the Biocareer Fair today at KLCC, which sort of brought US together again since the very very lassssst outing (don't remember when was the last time we went out).

Me and Stef took train, in the train Stef received Ivan's message saying he might come bit late :( The first sign of ffking, but we believed that Ivan surely has his reason :)

Shortly after we reached KLCC, Htennek, Carmen and Shin arrived too. Htennek proudly said that he's got an illegal parking which is not obstructing the traffic. hmm, Me and Stef felt jealous and never knew such illegal parking spot exists in somewhere as congested as Kuala Lumpur.

hmm, apparently, the one who we thought would definitely FFK arrived first before all of us, congratulation WEIKEAT. :))) and he already registered himself and were already in the hall when we all arrived. EELEEN didn't come ... :(

Honestly, the exhibition was kinda disappointing and can see that biotech is still quite under-developed in Malaysia... not many booths there and not really very interesting nor informative.

When we all just started collecting brochures (cause we don't wanna leave with empty hands), Wei Keat already start complaining and wanted to go for lunch because before we really arrive at the hall, he has already seen everything there at least 3 times... >.< Lunch at Madam Kwan, there was where Carmen confessed that she wanted a transparent gown for her wedding with Bryan. hahaha


(Htennek's dessert: A for Aurea)

After settling the bill, we walked to Htennek's car and proceeded to the next destination, Bukit Bintang. His car was miles away, when we reached to the secluded area where he claimed as free, safe and illegal parking, we finally understand that actually everything has a price, there was nothing as free parking in KL, and his price was RM 100. hahahaha



UNIQLO, after one week opening, still got many people come for it, though many just come because they have the "kia su" attitude, "Since everyone goes, I must go too!". From our observation, many just went in and out without buying anything. But our Htennek has got some harvest! hahaha







SNOWFLAKES, Pavillion was sort of our ultimate destination of the day, because Carmen has never been to Pavillion before. :) A lot of people there, we finally got a place and we got some nice camwhore pictures after settling down! but for some weird reason, we ordered one extra Japan Combo. Since Ivan said he can join us for dinner, we decided to tapao for Ivan, because Htennek claimed that Snowflake ice will not melt. Though Shin was still in doubted with Htennek's words but the rest chose to believe Htennek cause the way he said it, or in fact everything he said today sounded extra convincing. Weird, that didn't always happen...











Wei Keat has to go back early because his dad's birthday today. Happy Birthday Uncle. Meaning Shin and Carmen have to go back too because they need Wei Keat's transport :) We walked them to the Monorail station, on the way, we saw this static "YES" robot statue standing by the walkway. Htennek eagerly wanted to take picture with the robot, Stef too.



Asked Stef when standing beside the robot, "hmm, is this real human in robot mascot or just a statue?"

Before she could have a second thought, the robot moved and scared her like the cockroach did. Stef's involuntary reaction was priceless! She immediately jumped and screamed as though she was being molested... Later we could see tears in her eyes.. hahaha..



Apparently, there were more than one "Yes" robot, Stef didn't want to take photo with the one which frightened her and she went to the next robot and we took a picture. :)





After seeing them off, we went to have a walk in Sungei Wang while waiting for Ivan to have dinner at the Lot 10 "Food Heritage". I heard there are quite lot nice foods because there are famous chefs from all over the place, but mainly chinese cuisine.


(We walked to T-bowl in Sungei Wang to have a look)


(The place where we were supposed to have dinner)

Suddenly, Htennek received a call from his dad, ops he has to go home early... so our dinner cancelled :( but nvm next time we should all go together again :)

Lastly, SNOWFLAKES DOES MELT!! We were fooled... grrrhh Htennekkkk...



After a looong day, time to get back to assignmentssss.. !

Escapism Syndrome

I am suppose to be doing my assignment. Stef & I planned to finish an assignment by this weekend. I've completed half so far. Wanted to complete it by today, but guess where am I now.. I'm in Starhill.

Do you guys know about the RM3.60 promotion in Starhill??? There's a few restaurants in Starhill which provides a RM 3.60 menu. Anything you order from the menu cost RM 3.60. awesome right? I'm in Shook! restaurant eating some loooong sausage, haha, pizza, and some other food i ordered that's not here yet. This promotion is from 3pm till 6pm daily. My mom and aunt are both in Fisherman' cove. They're both on restaurant hopping. I wanted to join them but i've decided to be a good girl, so I'm staying here to do my assignment! :D
Anyway, if you guys are up for some nice meal with nice ambiance, but with cheap price, here's the place to come.

Oh, food's here! time to eat.. :D
Dont worry Stef, i'll complete my assignment by tmrw! :D

Friday, November 12, 2010

The culprit.



This ugly, distorded and disgusting pic is showing a dirty flithy insect. An insect that will give 2 pangeelapongers a heart attack if they EVER encounter a situation like what I did just now.

So, what happened was.. a cockroach just crawled to my foot. For nothing. Shit man! I was sitting peacefully on the floor with my laptop on the table. Out of a sudden I just felt something poking me and I involuntarily used my right hand to sweep it off. I thought it might be some hair or whatsoever la..

Then, the poking came back. This time, I involuntarily looked down. And, I saw this brown flat creature running away. Surprisingly, I did not scream but just stared at my foot and hand. After bout like 5 seconds, I finally realised that A COCKROACH JUST USED ITS ANTENNAS TO POKE ME AND RUN AWAY AFTER I LOOKED AT IT.

What.. playing hide and seek meh?? Lame piece of shit. Dare to poke but don't dare to admit and run away instead. One more thing, I'm a human and I smell like a human. Can't you sense it with your ultimately long antennas? And as a cockroach don't you think you should avoid me for I might just smack you and you'd be gone forever? Haih.. Peter never said cockroaches will poke.

Guess what I did after that.. I washed my hands and feet with dynamo. HAHA
And I drew the picture because the real picture of a cockroach is way too disgusting that it might just shoo ppl off from this blog.

I promised to blog this week and I did! But I was supposed to blog about something interesting bout oreo and not this disgusting creature. Guess its my karma for not blogging. (If this incident didnt happened, I wouldn't have blogged too. Lol)

Since I started off with a disgusting drawing, I shall end with a nice picture:)


Tadaa! Mini oreo:) hope you all liked it.

Till then:)

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Beautiful Imperfection

I found this video to be related to our blog!


Enjoy :)

THAILAND!!!

This summer plan. Lets get out of the country and go somewhere where 1malaysia doesnt exist :) Any ideas? Mine is already in the title caption :)

Day's Revelations

It's been a while since i touched the frying pan. One might ask why. Well, firstly i love to eat but i cant really cook. Next, i hate the washing up part. Finally, i usually mess up the area. However, i am particularly interested in trying my luck (omg, luck dependent person) on western dishes. Haha, why again. I like the part where chef jamie oliver sprinkles olive oil in an uncontrollable amount into the Caesar salad or some cooking pan. So blissful yet unaware of the amount of oil placed into the pot of glutton. Yes yes i know most of you people will say, olive oil is unsaturated oil. But once it's is oxidized, one way or another, it will be saturated somehow.

I fancy western dishes way more than typical chinese cooking because they don't use cliche bok choy as the ingredient and other spices or herbs. In western cooking, you are enticed by the smell of fresh rosemary roasted with lamb or some other exotic spices which triggers you olfactory sense.

Ook enough crap. On friday, i decided that i am gonna cook. Not just cook cook but cook clean ==.

after shopping for ingredients on saturday night, i allow my body and mind to rest for the task ahead tomorrow.

5 pm came and i am prepared. Armed with cleavers, knife and whatever arsenal you can find in the kitchen was on my fingertips. I firstly boiled the potatoes until they are soft in order to make a mashed potato. The onions were chopped next and saute-ed. Of course only butter is used since i like it fat == no la its for the buttery fragrance. Once the onion is ready, add in the mixed vege and continue stirring. Once its half done, add in the ground beef and add salt, pepper and winchester sauce for tasting.

Once it is done i arrange the ingredients into a corningware and baked it at 180 for 20 minutes. Next came the critique which really criticizes.

Why peas so hard one.
Why potato layer to think one.
Where are the meat, did you put those in.
Is the tomatoes still half cooked.
Is there a cockroach here?

Last one was a joke (Sometimes htennek jokes)

My that is why i hate cooking. lol... critiques. Semenyih here i come tomorrow !!!!!

Small Small Day

They say year 2's gonna be all different now; that year 2 is of a busy year and such that we will have not much time in our hands. I can accept that reality that there are more assignments, slightly but not at an overwhelming weight. But here I am still wondering why my weekends and time at home isn't still as productive as a year 2 should be. Seems like it might be year 2 for me, but I'm still not quite there yet inside of me.

I was out yesterday with a few friends and my sis hoping to just relax and lepak for awhile since it's the weekend. Apart from that, we've hardly had any time out together and hence, we picked Saturday as the perfect day to just kick back and relax. Originally, I had intended to urge them to go Gasing Hill as a recreation. But somehow the plan failed: Not only were they not as interested as I was, but I ended up oversleeping too. Which reminds me of a certain day within this week as well which I had suffered a similar fate where regret overwhelms me as the bubble floats through my mind. Deja vu, much?

And so we arrived earlier in 1 Utama to purchase the tickets. Due to the recent Deepavali holidays, the usual staff in GSC, which comprises of mainly Malaysian Indians, were not much around. Hence, there were only two counters open at the ticketing booths and hence the line accumulated and lengthened to a great extent even at the early hours of the day. But perseverance did us good and we managed to purchase the tickets of choice. We then proceeded to McD for a simple lunch before heading to Popular to find a particular book which I had in mind for someone. Before we knew it, it was time for the movie (apparently movie is a typo. It's underlined in red).

RED was an interesting movie. Might be pretty cliche-ish to some but then it does hold its surprises and amusements. It's about a retired CIA agent whom was targeted for assassination, whom then seeks assistance from previous associates, whom are also retired by now in the attempt to cover the plot and reasons why he was targeted. He finds love on the way as he brought the girl he fancies in an attempt to protect her from being targeted as well. And so they managed to uncover a few secrets and came up with a pretty good movie. If you have much ample time and vacancy and you are not a year 2 or year 3 student, I'd pretty much say that this movie is a must-watch for entertainment sake. And if you're year 2 and year 3... Have you done your assignments yet? If yes, then maybe.

Moving on to the shopping plan after the movie. Sis began looking around for gifts. We approached one and we entered. I looked around and was conferred many ideas for the coming seasonal holiday where I look out for smiles. I began to wonder if I could repeat the past as I did when I was with her in achieving this. And a few individuals came to mind specifically, but then I hesitated again and left. Sis took her own sweet time, as usual. And then we headed to Cold Storage as she had wanted to shop for groceries. We then spent a lot of time walking around while she went around picking what she wanted. Finally, after almost an hour maybe, we could leave and we went for dinner.

There was this place called New Paris Restaurant in SS2, adjacent to the upcoming SS-Two-Mall. We ordered selected dishes which were the favourites in the venue. We thought of going medium for one of the dishes until the uncle taking our order was like "Aiyo mm sai medium la. Sai dou kau laa" (If I had typed that correctly: Aiyo there's no need for medium lah. Small dishes will suffice lah!"). We tried their famous Champagne chicken, which was different in taste, but didn't feel that special. But their Marmite Pork Ribs were quite a fancy. And so we left with neutral opinions about the place, unsure if we'll want return here. Maybe not.

And so ended our day as we went home. I placed myself comfortably on the large blue office-chair hoping to relax, as I felt somewhat exhausted being out almost half the day. I was then given a jolt of electricity as my eyes scanned a familiar paper on the table: PLANT AND CELL PHYSIOLOGY B - and I knew there was something I needed to do. T'was a pretty fancy day. I miss her. She knows it. And hopefully the relaxation from this eventful day would result in me putting more in as a year 2 student.

Ah, the blues.

Everyone has a role to play

hmm... always wonder, am I really in the right course?

"Plant Biotech"

Is this really gonna be my future? Am I gonna succeed in this?

Whenever this comes to my mind, I'll always tell myself not to take this too hard because everyone has his/her role to play in life. It's just the matter of time, one day, at the right time, at the right place, we'll find ourselves contributing something to the society, nation or the world.

No matter what course you're in, you might be in doubt that whether or not what you study now will lead you to a bright future... don't be... just try your best to play your role and have faith for whatever you're doing right now. One day, you might find yourself excel in it OR you might find yourself doing something completely unrelated to your studies, but that doesn't mean that you've failed in life, just that you might have found a better path to success. :)

So, every second, every minute, I pay attention to what I do, to try and find out whats my real interest and what am I really good at, for example,

If my dad ask me to clean the garden, remove the weeds or mow the lawn, I'll do it with full effort. Who knows one day I'll success in doing Gardening/Farming and make it as my career.

Sometimes when I'm invited for BBQ party, people always like to compliment that the satay, chicken wing or whatever I grill is very delicious.... hmm I take that as a real compliment, who knows one day when I'm jobless, I can still be a satay hawker. haha

Success is just how you define it, some people want to be really rich, some people just prefer to live a simple life with family... it's all up to us to decide :) To achieve success, no doubt we must go through ups and downs, but as long as we don't give up, one day we will sure achieve the success which we wanted.

Need to improve our ratings again!!!!

For your information, the blog nuffnang isnt showing advertisments anymore!!!!
On our blog only.

Why is that so???
cz we aren't blogging anymore..

so i suggest we come up with a post every day. Just with different pangeelapongers.
If you have any creative juices or something to voice out, just say it here.

No one is here to judge.

To all those MOTHER FATHER hypocritical crocodiles out there, if anything here is not worth your time. Please deprive us of your self consciousness and leave us your comment in the box. We will kindly attend to your thoughts in a million years time ==

sorry for being rude there.

Biggest Mistake Yet?

Due to unending nagging and pestering from both dad and friends, i decided on a saturday afternoon to chop off my darling hair ==. I am frankly speaking here, i hate going to the hairdresser. Firstly, i dont know what style i want. Next i want something low maintenance which i can easily maintain larh. 10 minutes is considered high maintenance. Next, i am afraid of sharing my thoughts on how to cut my friggin hair with the stylist cz it my drive them into thinking that i think they are not good enough. finally, i am always afraid of the outcome.

So i went to the usual shop, derrick and team at mid valley. No i dont remember the name of the stylist who last did my hair cz i visit that shop 2-3 months once. so yeah. i always go for the same wash and cut (35) cz its the safest. i dont dye my hair cz i hate highlights (looks gay). I will only dye my hair if the whole hair gets dyed. i sat down and grabbed a magazine so i dont look overly nervous about my visit here. And as usual the same person comes, i forgot his name. crapeish. he speaks in canto to me :) so i dont have a language barrier telling him that i FINALLY came back. He always ask me ( gei loi cho ar chui hou yat pai chin tou fat) when was the last fucking time you cut your hair?

then he proceeds to tell me what style should i cut. hmm this is the complicated part. i cant explain how i wanted it to be cz i dont have the picture with me. The hairstyle i wanted was planned earlier with someone cz i will be totally helpless without her. but i FORGOT to bring it.

The next fucking problem was that i cant tell him how the picture looks like cz its kinda complicated and i dont really equip myself with hairstyling vocabularies. so yeah. i told him what came into my mind at that instant.

Him: Lei yu mat yeh style?
Me: Short and spiky

omg come on htennek, short and spiky? i could have think of better words than short and spiky. gah so i took of my specs (yes i hate contacts, veli the tiring larh) and let his magic work.

Did it worked? i guess its for you to decide. One said no LOL

Right now i am running my fingers through my hair, short hair thinking was it the biggest mistake yet? hmmm, i dont think so larh.


Saturday, November 6, 2010

Busy, Friends

I was browsing around the folders in my computer and
I found this old picture which I edited,


out of a sudden, I felt like writing an update on this blog, hoping to make it as active as the Merapi volcano.

Anyway the latest eruption, on the 5th if not mistaken, has killed around 64 people; then we have serious floods in Thailand, Perlis and Kedah... are these the indications of end of the world?

Looking at the picture, I start to feel like life in Uni is not as happening as it used to be...
perhaps we all are getting busier with studies and assignments so we become more and more "stingy" to allocate time for friends to carry out some fun activities.

Though it may not be true for other courses but it's quite apparent in our Year bioscience...
It could be due to the size of the class, or the combination of people from everywhere which don't really match each other?

Or it's just that the effort is not there?

I remember last time in high school, teachers always complain that our year; the 1990 born are very passive and we are more selfish and care only for ourselves... although not SCIENTIFICALLY PROVEN yet, I can see some true in the statement. :(

At times, we're busy chasing success in our life to an extent where we might neglect the merit of family and friends.... sometimes it's ok to slow down the pace in life and look at the sceneries around, see is there anything worth you stopping to have a look or care.

Billows of Affection

I compare thee to a beautiful start, an ugly climax, but a beautiful ending. How you began left me feeling enthralled, wishing to go on all the way; I pursued you with much enthusiasm.

But as the moments pass by, sweet becomes bitter; light becomes dark, as I now see your full fury unleashed. It has affected everyone; affected me it has, too. I could only cower, hoping that this stage is momentary. And as hoped, it was.

I watch the steam dissipate into what lured me to you: into a stage which made me love you. At the end, I reached out to you and then embraced you, wishing that this stage will last forever.

As a student, many would wish so: but your cycle must go on and that I accept. And so, I closed my eyes, last watching you smile with much cool.

And then I wake up again, once again, to a beautiful you.

Semenyih mornings are beautiful.



* a more meaningful post from me next time, hopefully (: *

Friday, November 5, 2010

Someone triggered me to blog

well lets see. i found out all out post are lacking pictures. crapeish
minnie mana kamera lu????
i cant bring my fujifilm punya cz its damn blardy big and inconvenient.
NEWAYS, we are having few days off from uni life as some lecturers are cancelling their classes. which is a good thing because firstly christina is indian, pretty obvious right?
next our dear daniel smithy cancelled his class. i wonder why. i think its because his wife is indian as well. from the facebook profile picture. so that figures.
finally i wonder why there is no class for asgar. is it due to his nationality? i heard he is from india so one way or another he celebrates deepavali eventhough he is a muslim. no pun intended.

any how i love holidays. although i intend to dedicate this holiday to finish my assignments i am doing a bad job trying to stick to it. wasting my time away sleeping. i think i lost my ipod and i am friggin depressed wei. how la.... damn broke already to get another one. and the new one is friggin ugleh...., i want the classic one but friggin exp wei... need to starve myself for a few months only can get it. zzzzzzzz

i need to get back to my assignments/ movie so i am planning to blog tomorrow.
to stefanie lee S H .... safe journey to the land of merlion and you bettar get me something i tell you... if not..... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

night! have fun this diwali and happy holidays

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

It time for an update finally

htennek-
Keat keat's birthday was today but we had a drink session yesterday in conjunction with his 12 oclock birthday. As predictable, if there is alcohol, there will be ivan minnie and ronald. We started with light albeit gassy drinks such as carlsberg. As you know carlsberg is made using Saccharomyces carlsbergensis. If you dont believe, ask christina. Moving on, stef was already high on a few doses of sparkling juice but she kept denying it. We played a few games which are meant to get everyone warmed up. And bloodyhell i was forced to down that bloody coke mixed liquer which doesnt really taste good. By that time, most of us are red faced but not really drunk yet. So we started on the cake woohoo which wasnt that bad. after the cake, we started on the Jeevamoney Davies brought at a local store. anyhow minnie assumed the role of mickey and started yelling at everyone lol. so we had to bottoms up alot. basically in no time, stef who was already high was now on cloud nine. Eeleen can basically to a basic routine of pole dancing if given a pole. alcohol was on the floor and the room stank of alcohol. messy !!!!! at one point only one of us vomitted, no names mentioned. I sleep over and woke up the next morning feeling extremely hungry. as i am typing this out, i havent taken any form of solid food except for some choco biscuit i had in the morning. dinner is soon so i can get my fill. note to all other pangeelapongers, do upload something please. blogs are not meant to survive. they need human touch!!!!!!!